Jandek

Part Four

Jandek


Depressed 
Just don't care 
Can't get up a reason to do anything 
Too early to drink 
Sun too strong 
Started to go someplace 
Had to come back 
Just turn around 
Thought of it at the start 
Pushed myself 
Staring out the window 
No expression 
Must have seen things 
It's the highway 
Just a dead mental pervasive feeling 
Like no feeling 
Like no want 
Just, well, heavy 
Nothing 
Don't want to hurt 
Don't want anything 
It's no use 
Just lie low 
Wait for tomorrow's nothing 
They have hope, those creators 
No creation here 
Record a falling erection 
The edifice of me 
I don't care 
Can't get up a care 
I can put on a face 
Learned that somewhere 
Necessity 
But I can't let them have me 
God, how worse that can be 
Depression is consoling 
At least it's mine 
I can be a slave to depression 
But at least it's mine 
The scary world of losing control is far worse 
No reason to be, is something I know 
There's no overpowering outside force 
I don't excuse myself 
Well, I don't care 
I don't want to care 
It seems alien 
Oh sure, there's beauty 
I remember that 
It's quiet here 
No moving things 
The motivation of lower beings 
The shadows laying 
It's just nothing's interesting 
The only interesting thing is nothing 
That's all I want 
I care about nothing