Jandek

Part Six

Jandek


Have I always been this driven 
I wonder 
It's just when I stop the clock and notice 
I see a body moving fast 
With things to do 
And I wonder to myself 
Watching me move 
Could I always be here and watch 
It's not been my experience 
Things are often so unconscious 
I was going on dreaming 
One night when I slept 
But what to do today makes me 
Think about me more often 
And I catch myself running fast 
And I ask why 
Is it the exercise 
It matters less 
I know I'll continue 
But I forget who I am 
Taking orders, delivering things 
I finally found ??? 
It's a move away from that reverses the drive 
The energy gained 
The sight of the clear basic environments 
I wonder