Can I be honest for a second I’ve never felt this way before And for me to even admit it Yeah, it means a little more I kept waiting for the moment That you’d finally let me in But you never did Maybe I'm the one to blame For thinking that you felt the same Now I'm taking cold showers To drown out the hours And wash off your touch on my skin And I talk to myself just to get through the weeks Going back to how things could’ve been Do you even remember When we both drunk On the night of December Could’ve sworn it was love Always told me that’s you’d show me The town you grew up in By the ocean, pull me closer You’d lean in for a kiss And I told you, in a heart beat, I would find a way To make it there someday Let's just pretend This isn’t the end You Left me on read Just to mess with my head And left me in bed Alone Let's just pretend This isn’t the end Show up on my step Cause you want me again But you’re not in bed Alone