When my father put his shame on me Said he wouldn't put his name on me Said he wouldn't be the first in his family Whose son cried when he was born Well he died the day I got a gun Said that he was proud that I was his son That was right there in his plan I'd grow up and be a man And there was a tear, I saw it in his eye He said he couldn't think of a better way to die And the lord came down and put a spoon in my mouth It tasted so bitter, but I couldn't spit it out It tasted like the money that my poor mama made Well, I went and stole it 'Cause she took it to the grave And there was a note, clenched in her right hand said 'boy if you want to live, better die like a brave man' Well, I don't want to die in the middle of the night I want a brave man's death I don't want to die in the middle of the night I want a brave man's death Spitting gasoline, burning my teeth, getting salt on the fields of my past And the sun'll come down with a milky white flash I'll get my brave man's death at last I had a woman She had some kids She said she loved them I never did Just the way that they feed And take away what was young Mo' ass and muscle can do what needed to be done And the day that she died, her cup was fully drained She said take over my love, that life was worth the pain Well, I don't want to die in the middle of the night I want a brave man's death I don't want to die in the middle of the night I want a brave man's death Spitting gasoline, burning my teeth, getting salt on the fields of my past And the sun'll come down with a milky white flash I'll get my brave man's death at last Had a heart that's wailing But I'm back without a bone and a body'd go to work, but my head would come home And I always had a knife in case a real man came along He'd turn his head and his life was gone So I hold it in my heart, yes I hold it in my heart, no I hide it in my heart 'Cause it's tearing me apart Last thing that he said to me was blood was on my hands God, I want to die like a man I don't want to die (I don't want to die) I want a brave man's death Praying' the lord A soul to keep, keep it in his right hand And when they'd left, and send me death The death of a brave man