For years and years in this world I am living With infinite pain I swallow deep down inside No one have known how much wounds I covered No one have known how much I was tired How can it be I am drowning in oceans Of deep agony that take me to edges With the weight of this fate on my shoulders Asking myself to fall in this haze I've tried to search my hopes and my answers Across this malignant reigns of sorrow and grief I have seen so much gloom, desperation And the lights of the truth disappeared Indeed I felt my spirit withering slowly Cold autumn waves embraced entirely my being My fragile wishes have called me to follow My inner wisdoms and my secret dreams I've tried to fight against my loneliness I was always afraid to delusing someone I've slighted my real ideals and wishes And I've lied to myself about my life But I've found just cold statues on my paths And my naivety became my eternal flaw And soon I forget about my tenderness And thunders of madness encircled my soul Black fogs covered the sun of my existence And the fallen leaves have frozen my heart Asleep in the deepest agonal slumber I am chained in the mirrors of loss With every new fall I gain to this knowledges With every new pain my being will fade My sins and my failures will lead me to abyss My journey will come to it's unnatural end This words are so cold This beings are so wrong This pains are so old This feelings are so strong I drank alone my poison I've sit in depths of ashes I've withered in my darkness I burnt in my fancy's flames I fell in absence of myself I travelled beyond sweet deceits My world, lost and forgotten Adrift (adrift) in ocean of sins I'm the cursed, the vagrant I'm silent in fire of doom Oppressed by my inner damnation Betrayed by my wounded lusts My world is dying in indifference In loveless oceans of lies There's no time for the changes And I am (I am) so tired (so tired) to try