Diving into my despair Deep and deep downhill Long time ago my life was there Today I reaped my own black seed Guilt is what I'm forced to feel For unknown reason now I repeal All that I am and want to be Already dead inside of me Within my nutshell now I wither My castle turns to a dreadful prison Shreds of thoughts - inside they litter The barren desert of my wisdom Yeah - I'm a prisoner in myself This is neverending nightmare Won't somebody help me? Day by day my candle burns I'm not the one who used to be The ghosts of traumas of the past Are haunting my subconscious realm They block my sanity and kill my trust Exposing me to a sea of fears My doleful soul is suffocating Caught by unknown inner enemy I see a reflection in the mirror Of a person that is strange to me A time of serenity After keeping the same illusions I turn to me I think I've drawn the right conclusions