jerking off as a high point of today easy living gives no challenges frustrated by the world around boring life - someting must be found replacing needs, fill the emptiness caused by boredom and frustration try to live your dream when you're not even sure of what it is losing my faith questioning the life itself it seems there's nothing real to gain vain existence makes happiness insane futile struggle and i get pissed off again keep on smiling, don't show it out i carry on my foolish search for life artificial content, something to believe in maybe someday i will believe it myself i need to feel me part of something real hardcore, punk? just struggling in a trap...