When I lay my head down to sleep After I close my eyes I always wonder if it will be the final time And since I've been dreaming it would be for years Tonight I'll make my dreams come true I'll take my medicine at once And overdose in my sleep All my belongings you can keep Or throw them away like you've done before My only last wish is that you see my body And cry with your hand over your mouth You'll be the first to find me And the last to care