I love you and I'm not afraid of trying I’m not afraid of trying, I wish I was And I hate 'cause I know I'm really lying I know I’m really lying and it sucks I could lay in this bed Wide awake and upset And I can make it But I know that I'd be lying I'm so tired of living like angels and devils Always at war with each other But we're both losing the battle What did I do? Remember when you used to need me Exactly how I used to need you But you're telling me now you don't want to I love you and I'm not afraid of trying I'm not afraid of trying, I wish I was And I hate ’cause I know I’m really lying I know I'm really lying and it sucks I could lay in this bed Wide awake and upset And I can make it But I know that I’d be lying I know that I'd be lying I know that I'd be lying I don't want to I don’t want to I don't want to I don't want to Your words, burning my heart through the wire Mountains of gray from the fire Suppressing the rush of the pain Will I ever learn? How to be cold like the winter How to cover my heart from the blisters And not cry when I'm seeing your face I love you and I'm not afraid of trying I'm not afraid of trying, I wish I was And I hate 'cause I know I'm really lying I know I'm really lying and it sucks I could lay in this bed Wide awake and upset And I can make it But I know that I'd be lying I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to (I know that I'd be lying) I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to