I'll be 20 Next year But I dress like I'm old Sitting down 12 hours I could swear I'm Growing mold Kraft macaroni Cooking up On the stove I got nowhere else to be But I'll say I gotta go (gotta go) Every time she tells me I should stay some more (stay some more) Ion see no drugs so fuck it gotta go (gotta go) Gotta go Gotta go I gotta go Gotta go Not a single hour lately I don't wanna roll Not a single meal I wouldn't finish with a smoke Never touch a bogie and I put that on my soul But I light so many woods it's like a bought a pack of smokes (Like I bought a pack of Belmonts, yeah) Like I bought a pack of Newports Living life like it's a crash course Living life like there's a second try I know you will but I don't think I'll die So I'm giving everything a try Where'd you get it and how much it cost? How much of it cause an overdose I don't wanna die but I'll get close (bitch, I'll get close) How much of it gonna numb my soul? Intense emotion make me curl my toes Fuck love I feel it getting old (Fuck love I feel it getting old) Guccihighwaters I'll be 20 next year but I feel like I'm dead I look like I'm 12 and my hair is a mess Flip the stack just like a tech deck I ain’t smokin' gas but if I did it would be septic I'm fuckin ballin’ They tryna intercept it They just get crossed up Like an intersection Y’all my sons Like I broke the contraceptive She lackin' vitamin D So she swallowed my erection Must be my aesthetic Shawty gimme neck But it feel like anesthetic I can’t feel my chest shit My heart beatin' fast Think it’s cardiac arrest bitch Woah big words I think I need a dictionary Words inducing images but this ain’t Pictionary Write in the morning Record in the evening Day in the life But I breathe for no reason By the way girl, I gotta go I just get inspired from the feeling of your throat Plus it's cold out I think I see some snow Hopefully, it sticks so I can stay inside alone But How much of it gonna numb my soul? Intense emotion make me curl my toes