Wish I would've stayed in my bed Put all my dreams in my nightstand You said I changed with your eyes red Whispered "okay" under my breath Wish I would've stayed in my bed Put all my dreams in my nightstand You said I changed with your eyes red Whispered okay under my breath Looks like you've got nothing done Your value is lost Oh, what have you become? The critic inside you is holding a gun To your head, one false move and the chamber is spun I'm a fake to myself, live uncomfortably numb Mechanism for coping is biting my tongue I've lost focus in all this sought solace in Sunlight is burning my eyes, which direction is it coming from? Stupid thoughts halt my momentum, run from everyone And everything ignore your friends and family it's fun I stopped caring so damn long ago, zero to one I commentate my complications constantly I'm done Wish I would've stayed in my bed Put all my dreams in my nightstand You said I changed with your eyes red Whispered "okay" under my breath Wish I would've stayed in my bed Put all my dreams in my nightstand You said I changed with your eyes red Whispered okay under my breath You cannot hurt me But she gon' break me down into a fine pulp This shit taste like chicken I can barely tell its asphalt Somethin' creep up behind me when I turn around it's no one She could rip my face from off my body and it's my fault Pause She doesn't really mean it, she just do it for the applause I choose not to believe it, all of a sudden I am calm I'm convinced they hate me, but they lock it in their thoughts I just need some reassurance here and there to keep me going Girl, can you tell me what's up? I can't read your face when you got your walls up Look out on the lake you could see it light up It's even better in the winter you should try to come up Seems like summer never started Haven't left my apartment in months Why can't I just get you out Keep screaming with my head down Feels like nothing is an option And I'm always exhausted Tryna pull myself together Check my phone and it's December, whatever Wish I would've stayed, you'd-a liked that Put all my dreams in a nightstand You said I changed with your eyes red Whispered "okay" under my breath Yeah She makes home feel like a home in my head And when I'm with her I feel hope again