Standing in a place that I should know But it doesn’t seem at all familiar I dare not move for a moment Whilst I'm trying to get some kind of bearing To recognize these shapes and these shadows I can see and thought I knew Now panic is setting in as I still can’t work it out And a mass of jumbled thoughts Are running through my head Confusing and so disorientating And suddenly everything has all gone blank Recognition and communication systems appear to be failing The wiring inside me is slowly becoming faulty My being is slowly disappearing I'm filling up this thing that makes the water go hot To make some drinks for people In another room whose names escape me I know that I should know them but I don’t recognize their faces Even the words and the conversations seem so alien to me I don’t know who I am I can’t even recall my name I don’t know what I’ve ever done I don’t know where I’ve come from Although I feel warm and cozy in what I think is my home So many people around me are giving me so much love and affection But it makes me feel so nervous as I don’t know who I can trust Constantly Feeling anxious, constantly feeling afraid and alone I don’t know who I am I can’t even recall my name I don’t know what I’ve ever done I don’t know where I’ve come from No, I don’t know who I am I don’t even know about my history I can’t even think about my future I am just here in the now and that is all In rare moments of lucidity which pepper my universe of darkness Trying to piece together a world that I once knew, embraced and loved Trying to remember and picture those in my life who loved me too I hope so much that they are the ones who surround me now Until I leave for the last time I don't remember, I don't recall I got no memory of anything at all Anything at all Goodnight Goodbye