The story of my life I speak to you, no filtered characters to hide behind All the fucked up thoughts that rush in through my brain Will I lose the voice that keeps me sane? And will they see it? I'm running blind here And nothing seems clear I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here? Ashamed I am afraid that this all will be in vain A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear I can't help but feel this hopeless Vicious pit inside my gut And it makes me question the decisions That I've made while growing up I don't know now Decisions I have made, have I fucked up? I don't know how The future unfolds all I crave is hope I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here? Ashamed I am afraid that this all will be in vain A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear I can see it It's in my sights I just gotta reach it, pull it in before I go blind It looks into me, dead in my eyes And suddenly I notice I am terrified I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here? Ashamed I am afraid that this all will be in vain A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear I'm afraid I'll disappear