The things you tried to make me believe in To live, give, love and forgive I'm trying... Never painless, emotional emptiness I always keep raping myself this way Just darkness, I'm building myself a mountain of grief I'm left by myself Noose of guilt around my neck Will there be someone here to listen? Self destructive, or call it what you want Self deception, I do it time and time again True denial, Am I suicidal? As my pain mounts up I really can't tell anymore Now I am I'm left by myself Fed up by thoughts Will there be someone here to listen? Self destructive, or call it what you want Self deception, I do it time and time again Can't put my life on hold I need to catch my breath Can't put my life on hold I need to catch my breath Catch my breath Self destructive, or call it what you want Self deception, I do it time and time again Halls of emptiness, filled up with my mistakes Still rejected, all that's left is loneliness... I'm left by myself Fed up by thoughts There were no one here to listen Regret Forget