I thought I had been born again Sparks flying from the pulpit I was fighting fires for my sins My face against the carpet In the pews I lost my hope Where I was supposed to find it It was all I ever knew And it left me broken hearted I thought I had found freedom When I moved into the city I was puking out the window I was trying to be pretty They say fake it till you make it And they make it look so easy I was smiling on the outside On the inside I was screaming I was broken when you found me I was drowning in self pity It was lonely in the darkness I was sinking, I was spinning I'm not quite sure how it happened I don't know what you were thinking But you reached out your hand And offered me a new beginning