Sometimes I wonder what you'll think If I go down that road And everything that it means Will the words I say to you mean anything? I tried desperately to hold to love But finally understood I couldn't stop its sink I know it kills you But it was rotting me Alive On one side I knew the cost for you And the other was mine I can see in your eyes every time Just how perfect everything could be If I could only see With that same innocence But mine has been ripped apart And torn to shreds There is not an apology or a tear I could shed To make you believe I didn't work at it I can feel you shake Wishing I could hold you again When you feel like you are drowning Sometimes you just can't keep holding your breath There was poison in our home I drank it every day I know you can't see that but hopefully someday Someday you come to know I wasn't letting you go I was trying to hold to my heart And only in separation Was I going to not come apart I am not letting you go I am trying to hold to my heart And only in separation Am I not going to come apart