If I could pretend that I was getting better I thought that it would make up for how I am But I’ve always been indifferent I was there when you felt worn out But now I feel alone And if you’re waiting for a sign from me Then there must be something you don’t know The walls are caving in It’s getting harder to breathe The lights are out But you’re still in disbelief If there's not enough for me Then I won’t have enough for you So we can’t keep turning pages Without reading this through and through I could tell you about getting better But I’ll never know if I don’t change But if you bury me in your soil Then you might see brighter days (But you’re still in disbelief) But you’re still in disbelief But you’re still in disbelief But it’s okay for me to feel nothing And when I’m alone I’ve had to wait For the nights to end For a chance to sleep And it’s okay to release all of this pent up rage Because when all is said and done There’s no way I will say I'm sorry But I will wait But I will wait I can’t say how long it’s been Since I’ve felt like I’ve wanted to live