If I could pretend that I was getting better
I thought that it would make up for how I am
But I’ve always been indifferent
I was there when you felt worn out
But now I feel alone
And if you’re waiting for a sign from me
Then there must be something you don’t know
The walls are caving in
It’s getting harder to breathe
The lights are out
But you’re still in disbelief
If there's not enough for me
Then I won’t have enough for you
So we can’t keep turning pages
Without reading this through and through
I could tell you about getting better
But I’ll never know if I don’t change
But if you bury me in your soil
Then you might see brighter days
(But you’re still in disbelief)
But you’re still in disbelief
But you’re still in disbelief
But it’s okay for me to feel nothing
And when I’m alone I’ve had to wait
For the nights to end
For a chance to sleep
And it’s okay to release all of this pent up rage
Because when all is said and done
There’s no way I will say I'm sorry
But I will wait
But I will wait
I can’t say how long it’s been
Since I’ve felt like I’ve wanted to live
