"Such a mindless gift" I bring you this gift of some importance A journey through cities of pain and rivers of wonder You need not be afraid, I'll be with you when times are dark The lights are out, your eyes are closed, when you're not with me I need this day, raping thoughts, epileptic emotions Morbid dreams, to see you with me When does one begin and one stop Waiting for the expected tears And where does one begin and one stop The kaos of my thoughts in pain All the freaks around me, I watch I want to capture their attention Undivided, my pain, hate, feel my misery Sorry, an empty gesture I sit in the rain Drops as large as bricks Like an ice cube in my palm Where the nails hammered into Crawling skin, my soul bright I view myself in the rain So peaceful But lies, mostly lies trapped in a kaotic void Of the emotion of nothing, watch me Watch yourself, actually don't bother, don't do a thing Just be you, for that is what you are, you I hate myself, for that is what I am, Hatred I shall see, hear or smell you at a later date Take care