I'm lying here, And I can get no sleep. My mind is running in circles, But I don't know why. I try to find the reason, But where should I start? Silence surrounds me, Inner chaos tears me up. Time goes by, nothing changed, My eyes are still open. It is a cold night and the moon, is shining through the window. Minutes seem like hours, In the everlasting darkness. With every thought I have, The situation is getting worse. Despair spreads out over myself, Maybe I'm just dreaming. I cannot decide anymore, What's reality and what's imagination. I sweat, taking a deep breath, My heart beats terribly against my chest. I'm lying stiff on my back, Holding me tight at the sheet.