akatastasia ...welcome to my schizoid world... condemned to live with scars despite of my urge to hide and die leisurely i blur all desire and never externalize my fire to be alive my apathy grows anew i nuzzle behind a hood of free falling constancy conspiracy genetic legacy in simple words my pain this white stuff which i take to wash all dirt in myself i know i'll become the prisoner bury me in the heart of a stonewall i would like to die (free) falling endearment of a knife getting my breast is just a gibe ...help... i exist 'cos i smeared ashes to heat me from mother earth i eat i drink i fall asleep i think 'bout double-bottom of my heart my apathy grows anew i nuzzle behind a hood of free falling constancy conspiracy genetic legacy in simple words my pain this white stuff which i take to wash all dirt in myself i know i'll become the prisoner bury me in the heart of a stonewall i would like to die (free) falling endearment of a knife getting my breast is just a gibe