Day of Suffering

To Sleep While Standing

Day of Suffering


Ensnared by the binds of consuming maturity 
Insatiable demons of greed tearing from me all that's familiar 
All that's sacred, all that's good 
My being bent to the point 
Where I no longer see that my world 
Is a world of fools 

The pained contortion of my face 
Bears witness to the sickening irony 
To gaze upon the image 
Captured for eternity by machine 
Would whisk away 
The illness that abounds 

Would wrap me within a gentle cloak 
Of visions 
Of the warmth and smells of that night 

Countless sighs ago 
Countless cries ago 
Seemingly lives ago 
It seems we wash our hands a bit more these days 

Take me back to my home 
That will forever be the past 
I cringe at the grim reality 
It conjures up a violence within me 
Best left unseen 
It seems to tear blood from my eyes 
As the tears have run dry 
To sleep; to dream 
To come as close to that eve 
As I'll ever fucking be again 
As I would trade infinity 
To be that naïve boy again 
Justified I simply submit 
And now my time-enduring words 
Sound like the rantings of a madman