Sink within myself to introspect my obnoxious responses
to enfeeble unintended impulsions
Despised emotions restrained
Fear to lose my balance, the rational grip
...to be disconnected from my mind
Shield myself with repugnance,
dispraising selfindulgence
Emotions deracinated
Despised emotions restrained
It's nothing but a deceptive felicity
Gazing at a haze, at the image of my projection...
a creation of ultimate perfection.
Its appeal sustains, persists in my mind
Unexpectedly blinding my eyes
Desiderating affection, subtitute its absence
Drowning in an ebulliency of euphoria
Trying to maintain the suppress, the rejection
and to impede more luring inducements
Deceptive felicity
Almost too easy to leave my values behind
for these temporary thoughts
No... may not yield to the temptation
Disdaining these impulsive thoughts
I'm sickening the inquietude within
Compunction... desecrating the contempting, enshrined image
To deplete, to erase the stigmatization of my infirmity
To be drifted by intimacy and sphere
is equal to pathetic vulnerability
