Nowadays, I only go where I get celebrated
Some folks just wanna break me down that left me decimated
All my symptoms stress related
Anxiety paranoia and hyperventilation
Not too many I can count on if I had to estimate it
Nowadays, I only go where I get celebrated
Some folks just wanna break me down that left me decimated
All my symptoms stress related
Anxiety paranoia and hyperventilation
Not too many I can count on if I had to estimate it
If you love me, how could you question my dedication
I'm growing while you stuck stationary as vegetation
But you my people could never do defecation
Change requires elevation in between our wavelengths and separation
I wanna bring you up, that's just to tee you up
Like a driver on the green, but not the type to speed you up
I wanna get you past the rough
That's a concept I'm not really sure you grasp enough
Resentment steps in when you ain't moving past your grudge
It's foolish, that's because you setting yourself up
Like you movin packs and drugs ina trap
'Cause I got your best interests at heart
I always had a coat on, but for you, I set to defrost
I been sitting quietly in the back on some out of sight out of mind shit
That's the only time I can finally get to relax
My zone and my piece of mind I just been tryna get it back
It's people that say they love me but entitlement attached
And jealousy, same people that been tryna hit my Jack
But technically really just don't have time to hit em back
And I ain't tryna hit you back, don't got time to really chat
Unless its valuable to this empire I built from scratch
It was people like Nas that inspired me in fact
That grimy shit is back
And you have me to thank entirely for that
Contemplating retirement from rap
Turnin' down drinks, tryna keep my sobriety intact
I'm lighting up back to back
These anxiety attacks and depression I been fighting got me fighting like?
Sometimes I struggle to acknowledge the shit I lack
I don't wanna do no interviews, why would you even ask
Look, this paralysis in my face I'm still not comfy with
And plus they're usually asking some dummy shit
Cameras in my face, they post it on the pages
And people all in the comments damn what happened to his face
That's why I just stay away
It's annoying, I don't wanna get noticed
Direct eye contact, I avoid it
Go ahead and crack your little jokes, bet you enjoy it
Yous a funny guy but you still in line for unemployment
Know what's ironic, I actually had talks
About this possibly happening, but fuck what people thought
I still remember that call, told my bro I quit therapy
He was like yea right n fuck is you tellin me you trippin
You mean it's a procedure that can fix it
Had your shit back looking normal and you tellin me you didn't
Brodie I know you gifted but what if you get lit and n clownin every minute
That's gon have you feeling twisted
But I'm gon support you regardless your decision
Lookin back that's exactly what got me in this position being different
