I'm standing in the aftermath Searching for the strength to carry on I'm holding on to the memory Since the years that you've been gone The pain runs deep, it's a wound that never heals My heart aches for you, your absence is all I feel In the silence of my mind, I hear your voice calling back to mine I still spiral through circles, through circles in my perpetual unraveling It's not getting better The weight your absence brings This is an open letter One I know you'll never read Sometimes I feel You looking over my shoulder And sometimes I grieve Knowing you'll never get older My mind's consumed by misery Since the night you took your life Your suicide has left me struggling to survive These nights perpetuate and these days will fade to gray My world feels empty since you have slipped away Your absence carries on, a bittersweet swansong Every step that I take feels like a promise I break to keep your memory To keep your memory alive It's not getting better The weight your absence brings This is an open letter One I know you'll never read Sometimes I feel You looking over my shoulder And sometimes I grieve Knowing you'll never get older With every beat of my heart I'll keep your memory alive My brother, you will survive I'll never let your legacy die I'll never let your legacy die You may have taken your life But I had everything to lose In my heart, you will survive I still live for you I still live for you I still live for you I still live for you