Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high so they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie, it's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am has only left me more alone I am not okay, and I need you to see it I have so much to say, and no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surfacem any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse, I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay, and I need you to see it I have so much to say, and no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me if I keep it to myself To myself I am not okay, and I need you to see it I have so much to say, and no one to hear it I'm not okay, I'm not okay I'm never safe, it's not a phase If I finally break would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud