Walk into a room, poke holes in myself Maybe no one can tell that I'm so uncomfortable Make the way I feel the punch line of the joke That I wrote in my notes, needed new material And I'm getting attention, it's the only one second I'm forgetting that I'm lonely When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party But I don't even feel at home in my own body How long can I keep this up? Call it self-aware, while I self-destruct Damn it, I'm being so dramatic And there I go again, say I'm overreacting Gave up on myself, I'm sorry But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party Walk into my room First thing that I see is the version of me, been avoiding forever 'Cause you're not any fun, they don't want you around Dumb it down for the crowd, gotta keep it together Push it off a little bit longer And I'll come back for you when I'm stronger Yeah, all I need is one second I'm forgetting that I'm lonely When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party But I don't even feel at home in my own body How long can I keep this up? Call it self-aware, while I self-destruct Damn it, I'm being so dramatic And there I go again, say I'm overreacting Gave up on myself, I'm sorry But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party Ayy, ayy, I, I Ayy, ayy, I, I Ayy, ayy, I, I When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party Ayy, ayy, I, I Ayy, ayy, I, I Ayy, ayy, I, I When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party But I don't even feel at home in my own body How long can I keep this up? Damn it, I'm being so dramatic And there I go again, say I'm overreacting Gave up on myself, I'm sorry But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party I'm the life of the party (ayy, ayy, I, I) When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party (ayy, ayy, I, I) Gave up on myself, I'm sorry (ayy, ayy, I, I) But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party