Candice Jarrett

20 Odd Years

Candice Jarrett


I ask for an abundance of things
But I always seem to get
Skipped over
I didn't surround myself with 
Things that made me happy
They just didn't make me sad 
I looked around 
To see the things
In my life  

I was in love 
With so many of them 
You see 
But none of them were me

Chorus:
It's been 20-odd years 
Since I've seen the sunrise
It's been 20-odd years 
Since I felt I was alive
And I've never spent 
One day outside my mind
It's been 20-odd years 
And I've never lived one day 
In my whole life

How could you ever think 
I could look up to you?
For all those things 
That you said and you did 
The things you were never 
Man enough to do
And I look down to see 
The feet that crushed my dreams

Then I begin to see 
Those feet belong to me

(Chorus)

I have all these people 
In my life tellin me 
"You can't be" 
But every song seems to be 
About me in everything 
I think and everything I dream 
And everything that needs to be 
I look up to see my people 
Who need me and I need them so bad

I'd say 
I just wanna live one day

(Chorus)

I've spent 20-odd years of my life 
Never living a day alive