Lets think back, on all those times we had The times we laughed and times we cried Trying to sort out our lives My life didnt go according to plan I sold my soul to the devil, but he took my money and ran From what I hear, youre doing well As if by that fancy car outside, I couldnt tell Whats his name? Whats he do? Do you love him? Like I loved you? Are you happy? Or playing hide and seek When youre alone, do the tears find your cheek? No, I didnt mean to pry, just wanted to see how you were doing And after 15 years, it seems that Im the one losing, again Just so you know My days are filled with pain And my life, every day I live, is filled with regret To think I could walk out, on the only thing I had left And my nights are filled with disdain I got every single letter But didnt have the heart to write back Not that I couldnt find a pen, just the words, they lacked Because nothing could justify what I did How I walked out on you, and walked out on the kids Every day I wish I could turn back time So I could have something to lose, something to call mine But I dont deserve to be living, to be on this ground Im walking on Didnt even give a reason, opened the door and said Im gone Id never claim to be perfect, god knows Im not even close When I die, those pearly gates, theyll remain closed And all the things I said and did to you, and every one else Its time I look you in the eye, and tell you I blame myself Tell you Im sorry that I chose this way to live That you deserve so much better, but thats something I could never give Ive made a life, out of hurting everyone close to me Cheers to you, Im glad youre happy Just so you know My days are filled with pain And my life, every day I live, is filled with regret To think I could walk out, on the only thing I had left And my nights are filled with disdain No, I dont think that you could ever understand I deserve to be, exactly where I am At the bottom of this hole, that Ive been digging for too long Dont cry now baby, you wont miss me when Im gone