When I'm gone I hope it takes no thought at all To reminisce at our old photos, stuck to rotted wall Picturesque, full of lovely dreams I'd never wanna let 'em know how the mighty would fall Days at the start line, simple, fragile, frail Somehow the dark room washed out their every detail When did our hearts lose pulse and tip to scale Who was I back at the start? Young, foolish, idealistic Thinking I could take what was perfect and: Fix it Sinking even lower, life was good, now it's twisted Deals with the devil that I should have resisted (Watching, waiting, conscience fading) Romance-speak like: Hopes and dreams are just one Reality is made of many, I'm out-gunned (Watching, waiting, my self-hating) Never figured why I was surprised to find Half-truths are an alibi for straight-up lies Now feels like I'm singing six feet underground This heart is beating without any sound There are no second chances for me Nobody is likely to come back around Upon the ashes of what once grew here I'll plant a seed and depart by nightfall Was I the hero no one believed? Was I the villain after all? Innocent days are in on a distant hindsight And the imminent nostalgia, it hits and blind-sides me What remains couldn't match the dream Or explain how it wall went so down-stream (Watching, waiting, conscience fading) More alone now than ever before A wretched God of a mess on a dusty castle floor (Watching, waiting, my self-hating) Good to be the hate-sink, I can take the blame Collect power from the pointless pain People wanna see the beauty where there is none In a world that doesn't compensate anyone Afraid of ugliness, they back away and run Look at me directly we are not done Sometimes to do what's right, we have got to fight Tooth and nail to break rules and chase the night I can't stop the noise, I can't sleep tonight Would you catch me here, need a sign? (Watching, waiting) (Conscience fading) (My self-hating) (Isolating) Shade, kuchite yuku risou no hana kawakikita mitsu no aji ano koro no yuutopia ga yume kakushi ni atta mitai doko made ikeru ka na barabara ni sareta hiiroo kagayaki no kurayami ni ochi nagara saisei suru Jump, fall stay alive, just wanna save a life Jump, fall, stay alive, just wanna save a life Jump, fall, left behind, just give me one more try Jump, fall, left behind, just give me one more try Feeling less of a human like everyday I've been losing A little more of me, I'm sorry but this beggar is choosin' To run away at the eleventh hour living in infamy There is nothing left here for me There is nothing dear to me 'Cause I wanna escape And nothing gets better Until I make the decision to double it down And double triple the stakes I'm never gonna give up, I'm invincible Nobody stay in my way I'm a criminal Unwinnable battles cover the city in syllables In a silence so deafening Never be ever be anyone else Brave, hito ga hito wo kitsuzukete ai toka yume kitsuzukete Still dreaming you'll accept me Imperfect, in shambles, it hurts, but I want you to smile