So many times have I tried to escape from the depths of my mind. Holding back ...live in fear ...meaning slips away in tears, while I try to be what you need. ...live in shame because I'm not me. All of this runs so deep, ...and for that this life I keep. I know you see the end, ...you pretend. I know you, so the end you pretend to decide it's right. I know you see the end, ...you pretend. I know you see the end. You pretend these lies pass time. Falling away as the time slowly fades with me inside. I can't think, I can't find any reason why I lie, straight to your face. ...empty eyes, ...your emptiness has become mine. Walk away from this pain a victim of my own fucked up ways. ...the process of my fucked up ways. ...I must decide, deny my pride.