Alienating, i will never be free. 
I've been locking myself inside. 
all this time, searching for something that's right outside my door. but when i hear your name i just wish it all away.
I'm not looking but i still see, 
I'm not listening but i still hear. 
i feel even though you're not here. forever i fear you, fear me. 
i don't want to live forever. 
everyday i see your face, lying awake. 
i can feel your embrace crush me. 
i can't trust me, trust you. 
see me point my hatred at you. 
every time i hear your name, when i hear your name i just wish it all away.