I can hardly breathe My blood can't hold its heat I'm right where I'm supposed to be But I'm still not happy Life was so simple when I was miserable The unspoken struggle of moving on You lose all concept of life When you live one day at a time I'm not prepared for this Not ready for all the years I never thought I'd see Not ready to let down all the people that care about me Chipping away at the edges Joy tends to vanish once it's noticed I'm better than I've ever been And I won't pretend I'm not When I've come so close to giving up After all the years I spent wanting to self destruct Hold my hand Wish away the red stains (I can hardly breathe) I lack direction to run straight away So hold my hand I can hardly breathe My blood can't hold its heat I'm right where I'm supposed to be But I'm still not happy Life was so simple when I was miserable The unspoken struggle of moving on I wish that I could disappear That I could fade into the grey Without the burden of anyone missing me Without the burden of the blame