My Struggle

I cannot cope with some things 
Even though I try 
All the pain that hell brings 
It isn't justified 

Well maybe one less lie 
Would be enough in time 
I cannot wait to see 
Your image of me 

You do not realize the things you say 
Your clouded thinking 
You do not realize the pain you make 
It eats me up inside 

My Struggle 

It shouldn't take too long 
Over, past and gone 
I finally seen the way 
Where I don't have to pay 

Clouded judgment speaks 
All around me 
You didn't mean to say 
But I'm better off this way