Check it This ones going out to you mum, I really miss you. I no you can hear me. This is for you. I no your looking down. Are you proud of me? or are you upset i dont spend time with the family? or do you understand the way ive be come? There's so meny thing i wish i could say to you mum. I was seventeen years young when you passed away, I found it hard after you and dad devorived to find my way. I cryed away the pain, althougt i didnt complane. Caught in the middle of family sepiration, Was stress on my brain, deprasstion came, I dont no how I coped. Hit the pipe all my dreams are up in a cloud of smoke they didnt help it got me more comfused then i went to stay with dad when you moved and you were crushed when i saw you in caught after that letter i wrote, then one i reget that i wrote. felt like you lost your son felt like i lost my mum that was enuff and there was worse to come (x2) you no i miss you mum i really miss you now your gone now your gone i never felt so close to eny body as i did with you and now that im older i understand why people do the things they do that i was lacking life experince around '89 shit got serious Started with some ( ?? ) next thing i hear is Chumers, and evrery thing the doctors trys was useless Radio Treipi, Kemo Threaip 4th of july '91 down at the cemitry nowing that this day would eventully come i hope you no what you ment to me mum you were the one who said experince the world and do what you wanna do. so i hope your really proud of this man standing in front of you i no your watching me and i can feel you at times your still in my dreams and your still in my mind its been fithteen years since you left me behind and i wish you were here now siping this wine (i miss you) (x2) you no i miss you mum i really miss you now your gone now your gone when i look back i didnt even no you at all i was still growing up and just a little confused boy who never said good bye when you left last time i saw you nan told me not to talk about death and the day you past away i was the last one called and when they new the day beforee no body called at all but you still see me going to chrismas buying gift doing it for you that what you woulda wanted me to do im getting threw life yeah im doing okay started with you watching break dance back in the day how funnys that you were therer when i first did graff and you were my insperation to get out and rack i miss you so much mum but im not sad and greving when i was younger i was mad at you leaveing but the reasons dont madder eny more i still love you to death and forever after till i see you in the next life (x2) you no i miss you mum i really miss you now your gone now your gone.