There's no time for things that I perceive as bringing out the worst in me It's hard enough to get up off the ground When I'm holding onto useless thoughts A fight I wish I never fought And now my back's against the wall At least there's nowhere left to fall Count the time it took to fix my lack of trust I do all I can, but still it's not enough Now I'm holding out to shed this ball and chain I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight I'm lusting for the little things I love I never learned of any self-control 'Cause I just couldn't bring myself to care So many years I wasn't there Now I'm living with no time to spare My patterned overthinking isn't scarce 'Cause I just couldn't bring myself to care Myself to care And now my back's against the wall At least there's nowhere left to fall Count the time it took to fix my lack of trust I do all I can, but still it's not enough Now I'm holding out to shed this ball and chain I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight