Chemical Hero

the bastard can only think to run away. 
and everyday i return to her face over and over. 
now i live through mind melting chemicals. 
my forgotten hero, now i take his place. pray to be scarred about the womb. kill ambition, kill motivation. 
suicide slander molds meaningless chatter. 
i aim a pistol at a mirror. 
a cycle continues its reign. no fracture in this lifeline. it should have ended twenty years ago. return to the room where life begins. smash the source. cease the flow.