Astrid Van Der Veen

Sick Ceremony

Astrid Van Der Veen


their little girl said 
don't tell me how you feel 
you don't understand 
she painted the people 
she disgusted on her way down 
all there is left now 
is a picture of them 
with their faces on it, and it's my fault 

black roses 
as black as her hair 
white sheets 
as pale as her face 

she crossed her fingers 
and apologised to them 
then she flew off 
into the stream 
went to the light 
which faded meanwhile 
into the scratches on her cheeks 
and her raining soul 

red blood 
as red as her lips 
oh believe me 
I loved her too much 

I have been taught to believe in a force of light, a guiding light. An 
endless light, one with never failing helpers. I was told that the light surrounds me with love and peace 
and harmony. 
But, what now? What about the lies? What about the hurt? This force must have caused that, too.