Astrid Van Der Veen

Cold Metal

Astrid Van Der Veen


lying on my back on a railway 
looking at the sky and its full moon 
in the back of my head I feel the rumbling wheels 
shaking my memories 
it's getting darker and darker and darker 
my hands are frozen and steam comes out of my mouth 
as I whisper 
my last words 
seem to fade away 

the train is moving forward 
and closer 
can't stand up and walk away 
once I made my mind up so long ago 
now I can't change 
it is just too bad 

I feel so left alone, so forgotten 
nobody knows where I am, no one misses me 
cold water runs from my eyes 
and the cold is freezing my last tears 
like I 'm only half in my body, I can't feel 
I think I'm already half gone, I can't think 
It's getting colder and colder and colder 
I can't breath 

cold metal, burning in my back 
cold cold metal, freezing 
cold metal, my head will burst open 
cold cold metal, it's been too much