Fresh air slips out of my lungs way too fast The breaths are getting smaller by each time The drugs are slowing me down I really can't think as fast anymore I am afraid all the time and panic is always at my front door You once told me I know it hurts like fuck, but I hope you well enjoy it You took my virginity You were my first and you will be my last I can do nothing but thank you for all that you have done No-one can take away what you are There were so many things I feel that I should have said But God has taken that away from me, he's left me for dead I hope that you will read this, and I hope that you will understand I did everything to fight this cancer, but everyone needs to die I am so sorry for leaving you all alone Please don't be angry with me when I am dead and gone I am so afraid of dying. The pain has been going on for far too long I can almost hear them screaming my name from above I still Love you