I don’t wanna live like this anymore Take a bottle of pills & I’m out on the floor Too many times And I'll take the blame So I’m fucked in the head Put a gun to my brain Don’t worry about me I’ll be fine I’ve got thoughts of suicide on my mind I want it to end There is no friend Who gives a shit Nobody cares until your dead And even then they all pretend Pretend to care They’re not really there No no no Last year in March I was in pain I wanted to die Jumped in front of a train It was only a dream So when I woke up Climbed up to the bridge Tried to throw myself off I cried for days I was in pain I felt selfish With No one to blame But myself I’m always on my own I’m always alone And When I get in the zone I close myself off Cut people off Cut em off like I do Cause if they only knew What goes on in my head I’m Better off dead Like I’ve already said God I wish I was dead