I painted a picture full of poetry In hopes that you would notice the cracks Showed you a clearer me In hopes that you would mirror me back In hopes that I could travel a road full of prose And take that shit as far as it goes That I could feel the hand of time give me a pat on the back That I could mean everything I often say in my raps But see, love is sort of different in the way that it hurts But I would push through all the pain to show the weight of your worth They say that the heart is all that sets us apart But the fear you hold within is what determines the start I will never ever end it all you claim that you want And in the end you found you really never playing your part It was love at least that’s what I figured it was But it does, some shit you’d never think that it does Like make you rip and tell her every single part of yourself And show you things you probably never even thought of yourself You made me hate like, every single part of myself That was ugly or unwanted or just really unattractive, baby You were my whole earth, I was barely on your axis. Maybe if I was a different person, you would be affected, maybe.. I just felt me break inside of myself And there’s really not a place on earth to hide from myself It’s hard to find the truth when you barely be lying to yourself And have a face full of pride that’s not inside of yourself So I vow to never let my love outside of myself It’s just a message in the bottle and that bottle’s myself And somehow I still follow things I wish I could say Like even when I love God’s never with us or away Now I find myself alone because the bottom of my soul Is just a whole bunch of nonsense a whole bunch of conscious A whole bunch of old shit a whole bunch of problems A whole bunch of substance a hole full of drama And when every single hole that’s been punctured The bottom of my soul becomes a whole fucking dumpster For the time I made mistakes and wasting away I knew things was just a failed attempt to take your place And I know this is just a way of letting you go But I be lying on this beat if I ain’t letting you know You probably never know how it fucking feels when I cry But here’s to every fucking tear in the shield of my eye Hurt to see behind the smoke once it clears in subside And every feeling that’s inside becomes a feeling you hide Becomes a part of your past becomes a feeling denied Becomes a strenght that it’s fail becomes a tear that you cry Becomes a part of your soul becomes the heart of yourself That you never once touched by any fucking one else But I’m really just at war with myself And this is just a fucking place in which I’m pouring myself So I can’t seem ‘em coming down my eyes But you also can’t feel the way I drown inside Can’t see the massive amount the weight I hold The type of shame I know the type of pain I hold Keep it all inside this very picture frame I wrote And love was just a missile… And it kinda launched at a part of me particularly unprepared, unarmed, and unready. And I’d fallen as it hit me.. I never wanted to be a part of something I had no knowledge of.. But you feel and you grow And you hurt so you know.. Where to go… I can’t feel em, I can’t see em.. I let em go. I let em go. Haze, uhh