Suspended in time I'm standing in place A knife in my back They smile in my face A cross on my back And a gun on my waist Fuck em all Fuck em all I swear that I mean it 40 lashes on my back And I still ain't yo nigga 40 caliber barking It make sparks in the night I hit the city for business And take off in a flight It's first class or My ass ain't going nowhere If being fly was a crime They'd give me the chair I've been talking with God And he talk to me back I seen the light And now I know Where I'm supposed to be at Whatever rich look like Well I'm supposed to be that Standing tall through it all I see through the fog I'm getting closer to the Sun And they want me to fall I'm getting higher Lord Messiah You listen I call Suffer my wrath A labor of love I pray for salvation The stars up above I'm floating on air I'm rolling on dubs I'm pouring this syrup It's slowing my blood I lost my mind Out there looking for truth Tried to lose my heart But that's harder to do Searching for the time But that's harder to find The wickedness I seen Would make a cherubim cry When I was a baby My crib was a caddy Cruising the street Rest in peace to my daddy The shadow Of death Yeah I live in the valley Came from the pavement The gutters and alleys I said goodbye To the person I was Changing everyday To a person I love See the light from the ice Makes it harder to see The shadows in the dark Always following me