Alice In Darkland

The Cave (Aware of Not Existing)

Alice In Darkland


Repetition of my behaviour 
Is an everlasting course of scenes 
That run after one another 
Fixed points of a vicious circle 
That I wasn't able to break 
Of a schematic existence 
As futile as my own behaviour 

My life is a long journey 
Through the desolate ways of time 
A course of infinite sensations within myself 
Companions of my destiny 
Unrelenting and obscure omen of death 

A sad certainty 
The sole step of my existence 
Which will make me alike those around me 
I've ever lived without thinking about it 
Jealously keeping within me 
The phobia of what will happen 
That morbid fear which day by day 
Has worn out my thoughts 
Rendering my life a slow agonizing suicide 

Giving birth to my deepest anguish 
Aware of not existing 

Revelation of the obscure omen 
Achievement of my destiny 
Now I realize I've never really lived 
I think over the infinity of things that I could have done 
But my courage failed 
Desires... never fullfilled 
Dreams... never realized 
Because of stupid fears 

I feel I have thrown away a lot of time that was at my disposal 
During the journey of my life 
Into the obscure abyss of forgetfullness and depression 
That journey which was not so long as I imagined