Purgatorying (part 3)

I've held you up like a deity
Like you're the sole owner of wings
This unrequited tunnel vision
And I wonder why I've not been writing

Don't disturb me in this state
Please keep me purgatorying
I'll be damned if I'm to wake
This is far more than - than I have bargained for

I'll be damned if I'm to wake
This is far more than I'm equipped for