Well Of Happiness

Years and years I searched for this 
Found the right one ? No I didn't 
Hypocrisy is all what remains 
Shall I be happier if I cut my veins ? 
Are you my well of happines ? 
Here I sit again and cry 
Wondering what's the point of my life 
Are you the one I was searching for ? 
Or another deception which I can't take 
Are you my well of happines ?