Scattered thoughts collide and fuse Indicative of my past dementia Once i questioned it all Now i question nothing except Will i die tomorrow? Of i'm born today Strive to survive Choice of darwin's natural order of selection apparent Why me? Why them? Defined answers all illusive Pounding through the ignorance of a childhood long forgotten But suddenly i broke And then realized the relevance of outside ignorance Tormentor transformed from all to myself Striving, despite the negativity overabundance Confusion mounts as i enter my life Today will answer all but one question Multiplied by an inordinate tomorrow Pushing to find solutions to everything Unidentifiable by my darkened sight Betdown, i was "betdown"